It’s taking a while for this to load, but I’ve watched to when you tell us that someone on the other train looked and saw you… I’m gonna pause there just because I have to comment now.
Holy crap. I didn’t know any of this. Thank you for sharing, but also for sharing so personally and vulnerably. I admire you for that. Yes. Your life DOES have a purpose. I hope we get to be friends long enough for me to see what that ends up being. Clearly you’re an intelligent young lady, and it’s gonna be exciting to see what you do with…living.
Wow! That is such a powerful story! It made me get all emotional. You definitely DO have a purpose, and try not to listen to the thoughts in your head that ever tell you otherwise. There’s no dumb luck.. you are meant to be here. I dont know if you believe in God.. but he doesn’t make mistakes or make people without a purpose to fulfill in their lives. It wasn’t your time to leave the world, and I hope you start to gain back your confidence. Youre beautiful!
@AgainstTheWind1 - Thank you. I was nervous about this – it’s something I don’t even talk about with people close to me personally. I added a link to the story about my accident, if that’s easier for you. Thanks again for your support.
@eatcleantrainhard - I refound my faith over the past few months actually, which has led me from thinking “I should be dead” to “I have a reason for being here”. Thanks so much for the support, and I hope I gain the confidence back too
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@sonnigenmai - I’m not sure I can handle to read about it. It’ll just make me mad. Very mad. I’m a little protective…stuff like this really gets to me. I’m very very very sorry it happened. If there’s ever anything you need, don’t hesitate to let me know. Glad you have… Nick, is it?
I’ve felt the same way about my suicide attempt. I should have been dead (or at least significantly damaged) from overdosing heavily on a whole bottle of vicodin and other bottles of tylenol products (migraine, tylenol pm). I wrote letters to everyone of importance to me and then I also wrote one to god, telling him (although I’m largely an atheist) that if he exists he’s an asshole. My husband came home way early because he thought something was wrong and he called the paramedics. I spent the remainder of the night in and out of consciousness in the ER, with him by my side. The next day when I finally was conscious enough to realize I was still alive, I was so angry. I was in the psych ward (again) and I spent a few days trying to saw a hole in my wrist with the aluminum from a juice cup. But now, I’m very happy and sane for the first time in my life. I feel blessed with a second chance, including a functional liver (which I totally didn’t expect after all of that). So I feel like this is my chance to do everything I want to do for me and for the world.
You know, sometimes I just feel like I should walk over and talk to someone…and it turns out we have a career or ethnic similarity. I actually do believe that our subconscious calculates some things that we can’t understand. Is it a God thing? Maybe that too. I definitely am a Christian, but I also remain amazed at the sheer wonder that is the human mind and instinct.
Also, I could tell this was difficult for you to talk about, of course, and I wanted to thank you for sharing. I know it was all very hard for you. But I also wanted to say, you just sound so wise in your posts since the fall, deeply insightful, and in some odd way maybe this is the gift you and Adam have been given in response to your pain.
I have been feeling very down lately. This vlog was just the kick in the ass I needed to turn my thoughts around. You have inspired me to do a blog.
The older I get, the less I believe in luck. And the more I believe that every single thing that happens is for a purpose. Sometimes it’s just hard to figure out what. Sometimes we won’t know on this side. Most of the time it takes years to find out.
My daughter was hit by a car at age two. She is 15 now. God wants her here. She came out with only a few scratches and a cut behind her ear. Instead of going under the car, she flew in the air. I fully believe her angel caught her to break the fall, as high as they said she went.
I really don’t know what to say, besides that I think you’re very brave for sharing your story. I can’t even begin to imagine. I’m glad you’re here. *hugs*
@thiscrazyworld - Exactly It’s a whole journey to get to that point. I’m glad you’ve made it too. I hope you’re in a better place now!!! The hard part now is finding out what we want to do with this second chance. Not everyone gets one. Thank you for your support and sharing your story
@GreekPhysique - That’s what Adam thinks, too. Like we were given to eachother (both Christian, heh) to support eachother and help get through the pain. Thank you for your support as well. I do think a lot has changed in my perspective since the fall…I’m glad you see it as positive. It’s really encouraging, like I’m on the right track now. I completely agree about the subconscious thing too!
@mtngirlsouth - Oh my gosh! She is beyond lucky, not only to be alive but almost completely unharmed! I agree, things like that must have a purpose. She is one very special girl.
I’m glad you survived and I pray the Lord will bless you as you go forward in your life.
I believe there are people that suffer(ed) the same thing and we on some deeper level can feel the connection that that experience has given to us. I understand the questions and feelings you have from an experience I had. But I am so glad you are alive!
omg!!!!! girl. i shouldn’t be complaining about my lil daily trivial problems. i’m glad you survived!
No nothing like this is dumb luck. It is the work of angel and we are fulfilling our purpose every day we live and w emay never even know what it is and how we are doing. The fact that you and Adam are together and have both had the same experiences with 2nd chances are proof that neither of you should be dead. I believe in angels and that they guide us on our path to wherever it is we are going and along the way help us fulfill a purpose. Someone may ready your blog video that you just posted and understand that they are not the only ones this has happened too. I believe we fulfilled a purpose every day and that no life is without purpose and we may never know what it is but it just is.
Thanks to @AgainstTheWind1 I was able to see your vlog… Didn’t even know what they were until I saw yours and his.
I don’t believe in ‘dumb luck.’ Never have. I’ve always felt things happen in our lives for a reason and the same is true when another persons life path meets yours and now you are sharing your lives with each other. That person may walk with you for a few days, for a few months or it could be forever. Unless you take the time to find out why your paths have connected you will always have questions when they are no longer in your life.
Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. I know this the vlog was very hard for you to do, especially based on not knowing exactly what or why it happened. I did read your other account and if someone was behind the accident, that makes it even worse. Only cowards act this way and we will hope that karma comes back and shows them how wrong they were to do what they did.
I believe you will have the answers to your questions in due time. It may not happen right away, but your life is unfolding minute by minute and at some point it will become very clear.
Take good care of yourself and thank you for sharing the message. It gave me much to think about. Warm ((((HUGS)))), my dear.
You are SO beautiful, Sweetness! Thank you for sharing your story with us! You DO have a purpose and were saved to live out that purpose! In sharing your story you will help so many people! So, live your life with joy! HUGS, Carolyn
Amazing v-blog. I remember when this happened last year. But I didn’t know how it happened. I can see why you feel the way you do. Live you life to the fullest. Take this 2nd
phase of your life and be happy.
@StrawberrySunrises - Thank you It helps that I’m not the only one who feels this way. I hope your experiences have made you stronger!
@drk1mmy - It’s in the past, and I love hearing about your day.
@AdamsWomanFell - Thank you so much It feels great to hear that!
@musterion99 - Thank you for your thoughts and prayers
@Grannys_Place - Oddly enough, the missionary at my college, Theresa, said the same thing. As of this month, I’m in training to be a youth minister to help other college students struggling with depression and suicide. I hope I succeed!
And I agree in angels. Mine just seemed to be working overtime
@MzSilver - Thank you for the prayers and hugs I don’t think I’ll ever know what happened, but I think part of moving on is acceptance that maybe it’s better that way.
@sonnigenmai - I will add you to my prayers as you move forward in your journey!
Your smile is as beautiful as you are … I am glad your ok, and your boyfreind.
Now that your paths have crossed, It will be intresting to see where the next path takes you and what good comes of it. I think that when people have something like that happen they usally seem to help others more than what they would of you know?
Best wishes to the both of you
You’re looking good
You’ re not that smart. You expressed yourself in a dull way. Is this what people mean by dumb blonde? Whoever did this to you was wrong, did he steal your money, were you by yourself when it happened?
@RulerofMasons - Can’t you troll someplace else? Honestly, your comment doesn’t even deserve a reply.
This story is unbelievably touching, it truly brought tears to my eyes. The world is a funny place, but there IS a reason you are still here today and I do believe that meeting your boyfriend wasn’t just a coincidence. The world set you up because you were both emotionally damaged by your past, and you both needed somebody to relate to and move forth with. Don’t keep second guessing why you are still alive, because you ARE alive. You are such a beautiful girl, and you don’t deserve to be dwelling on the past.
Live every moment as if it’s your last. I’m very proud of you!
Trolls troll, and I was being honest.
Thank you for sharing this. I know it must have been hard, but I’m so glad you did because I needed to hear it. Thank you!
@RulerofMasons - But my intelligence is not an insecurity of mine. I have the highest available scholarship to one of the top engineering schools in the country. I was also one of 25 students selected nationally by Congress to spend a year (fully funded) in Germany. I’m one of the top writers in my class, and I’m in the honors program to earn a minor in Public Affairs. That stuff doesn’t happen to 19-year-olds who aren’t “smart”. My guess is you’re trolling me because of your OWN insecurities in that area, which is rather sad. I’m asking you to stop.
May.
@veeejh - Thank you so much. It has been great having him there for support. He’s one of the few people who knows the truth. I agree, there’s a reason we found eachother.
@forever_musing - Thank you I’m really surprised by the response to it. It was just something I needed to get off my chest, I never though so many people would want to listen.
May
Hello Dear (bensongrace31@yahoo.com) How are you, My name is grace after reading from your profile and became interested in you and i will also like to know you more fell free to contact me in my mail box with (bensongrace31@yahoo.com)i will send you my pic when you contact me and tell you more about my self waiting for your mail to my box thanks
some of your comments remind me of my feeling regarding a time in third grade when I was hit by a car. My friend and me were running back and forth across the street being stupid when I was hit. but yeah, I often wondered if I should have died that day and feel God has some purpose for me being here. even if it mere luck, I still owe God for being so great and need to be mindful that life, everyday I live, is sucha blessing. thank you for sharing this (despite negative comments – just ignore/delete/block them).
I hope you can heal for all your emotionaly, physcial, and spiritual wounds.
God bless!
Hey Pal! What an amazing story!!! I hope you go out there and live life with gusto and purpose! Go get ‘em!!!!!
@Doubledb - Thank you so much. I’m surprised by the response – I didn’t realize how many other people had similar experiences!
and yet… you’re still such an amazingly beautiful and inspirational girl.
I can only HOPE to be HALF as strong as you, my love.
*holds you real close if you want it*
@LKJSlain - You are so sweet…thank you so so much!
May
I’m so very sorry that you experienced that type of pain and suffering. For what it’s worth, you say it disfigured you…but you still look great! I don’t believe in fate but rather being in the right place at the right time and being fortunate sometimes. The fact that you two have similar stories of being survivors of some grim looking ordealsthat should help the both of you to develop a deeper much more closer, affectionate and supportive relationship than most couples. The both of you sound like a great match for each other.
@bluepillorredpill - We do care a lot about eachother, and it helps immensely to have someone who holds me when I cry without asking questions…because he already knows. Thank you for your kind words. I’m very self-conscious about it, but after another surgery or two I should be normal again. I’m lucky it wasn’t worse than a busted jaw
May
you’re never alone.
Superficial as it seems, let me say that you are gorgeous.
Now, dumb luck has nothing to do with it. You are meant to be here.
Keep doing what you have been. You’re on the right track (pun intended)
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It’s taking a while for this to load, but I’ve watched to when you tell us that someone on the other train looked and saw you… I’m gonna pause there just because I have to comment now.
Holy crap. I didn’t know any of this. Thank you for sharing, but also for sharing so personally and vulnerably. I admire you for that. Yes. Your life DOES have a purpose. I hope we get to be friends long enough for me to see what that ends up being. Clearly you’re an intelligent young lady, and it’s gonna be exciting to see what you do with…living.
Wow! That is such a powerful story! It made me get all emotional. You definitely DO have a purpose, and try not to listen to the thoughts in your head that ever tell you otherwise. There’s no dumb luck.. you are meant to be here. I dont know if you believe in God.. but he doesn’t make mistakes or make people without a purpose to fulfill in their lives.
It wasn’t your time to leave the world, and I hope you start to gain back your confidence. Youre beautiful!
@AgainstTheWind1 - Thank you. I was nervous about this – it’s something I don’t even talk about with people close to me personally. I added a link to the story about my accident, if that’s easier for you. Thanks again for your support.
@eatcleantrainhard - I refound my faith over the past few months actually, which has led me from thinking “I should be dead” to “I have a reason for being here”. Thanks so much for the support, and I hope I gain the confidence back too
M
@sonnigenmai - I’m not sure I can handle to read about it. It’ll just make me mad. Very mad. I’m a little protective…stuff like this really gets to me. I’m very very very sorry it happened. If there’s ever anything you need, don’t hesitate to let me know. Glad you have… Nick, is it?
I’ve felt the same way about my suicide attempt. I should have been dead (or at least significantly damaged) from overdosing heavily on a whole bottle of vicodin and other bottles of tylenol products (migraine, tylenol pm). I wrote letters to everyone of importance to me and then I also wrote one to god, telling him (although I’m largely an atheist) that if he exists he’s an asshole. My husband came home way early because he thought something was wrong and he called the paramedics. I spent the remainder of the night in and out of consciousness in the ER, with him by my side. The next day when I finally was conscious enough to realize I was still alive, I was so angry. I was in the psych ward (again) and I spent a few days trying to saw a hole in my wrist with the aluminum from a juice cup. But now, I’m very happy and sane for the first time in my life. I feel blessed with a second chance, including a functional liver (which I totally didn’t expect after all of that). So I feel like this is my chance to do everything I want to do for me and for the world.
You know, sometimes I just feel like I should walk over and talk to someone…and it turns out we have a career or ethnic similarity. I actually do believe that our subconscious calculates some things that we can’t understand. Is it a God thing? Maybe that too. I definitely am a Christian, but I also remain amazed at the sheer wonder that is the human mind and instinct.
Also, I could tell this was difficult for you to talk about, of course, and I wanted to thank you for sharing. I know it was all very hard for you. But I also wanted to say, you just sound so wise in your posts since the fall, deeply insightful, and in some odd way maybe this is the gift you and Adam have been given in response to your pain.
I have been feeling very down lately. This vlog was just the kick in the ass I needed to turn my thoughts around. You have inspired me to do a blog.
The older I get, the less I believe in luck. And the more I believe that every single thing that happens is for a purpose. Sometimes it’s just hard to figure out what. Sometimes we won’t know on this side. Most of the time it takes years to find out.
My daughter was hit by a car at age two. She is 15 now. God wants her here. She came out with only a few scratches and a cut behind her ear. Instead of going under the car, she flew in the air. I fully believe her angel caught her to break the fall, as high as they said she went.
I really don’t know what to say, besides that I think you’re very brave for sharing your story. I can’t even begin to imagine. I’m glad you’re here. *hugs*
@thiscrazyworld - Exactly
It’s a whole journey to get to that point. I’m glad you’ve made it too. I hope you’re in a better place now!!! The hard part now is finding out what we want to do with this second chance. Not everyone gets one. Thank you for your support and sharing your story 
@GreekPhysique - That’s what Adam thinks, too. Like we were given to eachother (both Christian, heh) to support eachother and help get through the pain. Thank you for your support as well. I do think a lot has changed in my perspective since the fall…I’m glad you see it as positive. It’s really encouraging, like I’m on the right track now. I completely agree about the subconscious thing too!
@mtngirlsouth - Oh my gosh! She is beyond lucky, not only to be alive but almost completely unharmed! I agree, things like that must have a purpose. She is one very special girl.
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@Megabyyte - Thank you
I’m glad you survived and I pray the Lord will bless you as you go forward in your life.
I believe there are people that suffer(ed) the same thing and we on some deeper level can feel the connection that that experience has given to us. I understand the questions and feelings you have from an experience I had. But I am so glad you are alive!
omg!!!!! girl. i shouldn’t be complaining about my lil daily trivial problems. i’m glad you survived!
No nothing like this is dumb luck. It is the work of angel and we are fulfilling our purpose every day we live and w emay never even know what it is and how we are doing. The fact that you and Adam are together and have both had the same experiences with 2nd chances are proof that neither of you should be dead.
I believe in angels and that they guide us on our path to wherever it is we are going and along the way help us fulfill a purpose. Someone may ready your blog video that you just posted and understand that they are not the only ones this has happened too.
I believe we fulfilled a purpose every day and that no life is without purpose and we may never know what it is but it just is.
Thanks to @AgainstTheWind1 I was able to see your vlog… Didn’t even know what they were until I saw yours and his.
I don’t believe in ‘dumb luck.’ Never have. I’ve always felt things happen in our lives for a reason and the same is true when another persons life path meets yours and now you are sharing your lives with each other. That person may walk with you for a few days, for a few months or it could be forever. Unless you take the time to find out why your paths have connected you will always have questions when they are no longer in your life.
Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. I know this the vlog was very hard for you to do, especially based on not knowing exactly what or why it happened. I did read your other account and if someone was behind the accident, that makes it even worse. Only cowards act this way and we will hope that karma comes back and shows them how wrong they were to do what they did.
I believe you will have the answers to your questions in due time. It may not happen right away, but your life is unfolding minute by minute and at some point it will become very clear.
Take good care of yourself and thank you for sharing the message. It gave me much to think about. Warm ((((HUGS)))), my dear.
You are SO beautiful, Sweetness!
Thank you for sharing your story with us!
You DO have a purpose and were saved to live out that purpose!
In sharing your story you will help so many people! So, live your life with joy!
HUGS, Carolyn
Amazing v-blog. I remember when this happened last year. But I didn’t know how it happened. I can see why you feel the way you do. Live you life to the fullest. Take this 2nd
phase of your life and be happy.
@StrawberrySunrises - Thank you
It helps that I’m not the only one who feels this way. I hope your experiences have made you stronger!
@drk1mmy - It’s in the past, and I love hearing about your day.
@AdamsWomanFell - Thank you so much
It feels great to hear that!
@musterion99 - Thank you for your thoughts and prayers
@Grannys_Place - Oddly enough, the missionary at my college, Theresa, said the same thing. As of this month, I’m in training to be a youth minister to help other college students struggling with depression and suicide. I hope I succeed!
And I agree in angels. Mine just seemed to be working overtime
@MzSilver - Thank you for the prayers and hugs
I don’t think I’ll ever know what happened, but I think part of moving on is acceptance that maybe it’s better that way.
@ccrider17 - Thank you
That’s exactly my plan.
@sonnigenmai - I will add you to my prayers as you move forward in your journey!
Your smile is as beautiful as you are
… I am glad your ok, and your boyfreind.
Now that your paths have crossed, It will be intresting to see where the next path takes you and what good comes of it. I think that when people have something like that happen they usally seem to help others more than what they would of you know?
Best wishes to the both of you
You’re looking good
You’ re not that smart. You expressed yourself in a dull way. Is this what people mean by dumb blonde? Whoever did this to you was wrong, did he steal your money, were you by yourself when it happened?
@RulerofMasons - Can’t you troll someplace else? Honestly, your comment doesn’t even deserve a reply.
@phantomFive - Thanks
@snowraven - Thank you, I hope you’re right!
This story is unbelievably touching, it truly brought tears to my eyes. The world is a funny place, but there IS a reason you are still here today and I do believe that meeting your boyfriend wasn’t just a coincidence. The world set you up because you were both emotionally damaged by your past, and you both needed somebody to relate to and move forth with. Don’t keep second guessing why you are still alive, because you ARE alive. You are such a beautiful girl, and you don’t deserve to be dwelling on the past.
Live every moment as if it’s your last. I’m very proud of you!
Trolls troll, and I was being honest.
Thank you for sharing this. I know it must have been hard, but I’m so glad you did because I needed to hear it. Thank you!
@RulerofMasons - But my intelligence is not an insecurity of mine. I have the highest available scholarship to one of the top engineering schools in the country. I was also one of 25 students selected nationally by Congress to spend a year (fully funded) in Germany. I’m one of the top writers in my class, and I’m in the honors program to earn a minor in Public Affairs. That stuff doesn’t happen to 19-year-olds who aren’t “smart”. My guess is you’re trolling me because of your OWN insecurities in that area, which is rather sad. I’m asking you to stop.
May.
@veeejh - Thank you so much. It has been great having him there for support. He’s one of the few people who knows the truth. I agree, there’s a reason we found eachother.
@forever_musing - Thank you
I’m really surprised by the response to it. It was just something I needed to get off my chest, I never though so many people would want to listen.
May
Hello Dear
(bensongrace31@yahoo.com)
How are you, My name is grace after reading from your profile and became interested in you and i will also like to know you more fell free to contact me in my mail box with (bensongrace31@yahoo.com)i will send you my pic when you contact me and tell you more about my self waiting for your mail to my box thanks
some of your comments remind me of my feeling regarding a time in third grade when I was hit by a car. My friend and me were running back and forth across the street being stupid when I was hit. but yeah, I often wondered if I should have died that day and feel God has some purpose for me being here. even if it mere luck, I still owe God for being so great and need to be mindful that life, everyday I live, is sucha blessing. thank you for sharing this (despite negative comments – just ignore/delete/block them).
I hope you can heal for all your emotionaly, physcial, and spiritual wounds.
God bless!
Hey Pal! What an amazing story!!! I hope you go out there and live life with gusto and purpose! Go get ‘em!!!!!
@Doubledb - Thank you so much. I’m surprised by the response – I didn’t realize how many other people had similar experiences!
@TrainTrack - Thank you
I’ll do my best.
and yet… you’re still such an amazingly beautiful and inspirational girl.
I can only HOPE to be HALF as strong as you, my love.
*holds you real close if you want it*
@LKJSlain - You are so sweet…thank you so so much!
May
I’m so very sorry that you experienced that type of pain and suffering. For what it’s worth, you say it disfigured you…but you still look great! I don’t believe in fate but rather being in the right place at the right time and being fortunate sometimes. The fact that you two have similar stories of being survivors of some grim looking ordealsthat should help the both of you to develop a deeper much more closer, affectionate and supportive relationship than most couples. The both of you sound like a great match for each other.
@bluepillorredpill - We do care a lot about eachother, and it helps immensely to have someone who holds me when I cry without asking questions…because he already knows. Thank you for your kind words. I’m very self-conscious about it, but after another surgery or two I should be normal again. I’m lucky it wasn’t worse than a busted jaw
May
you’re never alone.
Superficial as it seems, let me say that you are gorgeous.
Now, dumb luck has nothing to do with it. You are meant to be here.
Keep doing what you have been. You’re on the right track (pun intended)
@BenelliMan - Thank you
@thekeyhole - The pun cracked me up a little
Thanks for the support.
May