February 8, 2012
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What I Want This Valentine’s Day
I am a total sap. I love when couples Build-A-Bear together or carve their names into tree trunks. When elderly couples hold hands and when the good guy finally gets the girl. Handwritten cards on birthdays and home-made pies on Christmas.
In regards to Valentine’s Day, previous beaus have gone all out. I’ve received more Teddy Bears than I could keep – one of them being larger than me. Jewelry too; heart necklaces and silver rings. Chocolates and roses, love poems and songs… I’ve been taken to lovely dinners at expensive restaurants, ones I know neither of us could afford…
I didn’t want any of it.
What I want this Valentine’s Day is not something you can eat, or buy, or try on at Jared’s. I know these are all ‘tolkens of appreciation’…but somehow they have always felt so empty to me.
If I could wish for three things this Valentine’s day, here they are.
1) For him to tell me that he doesn’t want me to lose weight, that he thinks I am beautiful despite my flaws. Every day I stare at my plate, fighting with myself over if I should eat or not. It consumes me… I don’t want the chocolates, I just want to be told I can eat them and he will still find me pretty.
2) For him to tell me that I will be the only girl in his arms. That I’m not just another number, some ”filler girl” to mess around with until he finds someone special. I don’t want a pink bear to cuddle, I want him to hold me, to be faithful.
3) For him to tell me that he is happier because of me, that he loves waking up next to me and spending every day by my side. I don’t want a shiny ring on my finger – the only thing I want on my hand is his.
That’s what I want for Valentine’s Day.
May
Comments (18)
Nice list. Does your beau have a list of his own?
@QuantumStorm - Haha I’m sure he does. It probably includes that backrub I’ve been promising and ice cream.
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@sonnigenmai - Mmmm, backrubs… that reminds me, gotta stop by the massage parlor sometime this week hahaha
sounds normal to me,I already do that.
I agree, the best gifts are the ones that have the most heart behind them, not money. I don’t care what he gets me this year, but I’m making him a very nice ravioli dinner. :3
awww ur list is so cute
Awww, I really hope that you get those for Valentines day!
@rilthe - Your girl is lucky
@thiscrazyworld - Ohhhh yum. His birthday is a week after Valentine’s day, so we agreed I’d treat him then
@drk1mmy - Thanks hun. I’m hoping he’ll find it.
@Megabyyte - Thank you! I hope so too
May
That’s not too much to ask.
If it makes you feel any better, you should be happy to be with or have someone to share Valentines day with. I have always seemed to talk to, be interested in,. or go on a date in the Spring, Summer and Fall but never this time of year, so I still have never got to enjoy it. I dont think your least is at all unreasonable. I think what we all want is to meet someone who likes us for us, not just our shell but who we are on the inside. I suppose for prettier people, it is harder to find someone who sees you on the inside because they are attracted to your outside initially. But the other side is difficult to. I know I will find someone one day, they will love me for me, and I will know it because my shell isn’t anything to be excited about but I am confident in who I am and my identity. I know I am a catch, but it can be hard for others to see sometimes
wow, that sounded so depressing, lol. I didnt mean to sound like that. I dont mind Valentines day, I suppose I just wish I could be involved, ya know?
@sometimestheycomebackanyway - I think so too
@Doubledb - I totally understand where you are coming from. Will you be my Valentine?
@sonnigenmai -
That is actually the first time I think since like 5th grade anyone has ever said that to me, ha ha
I would say yes, except you need to have an awesome Valentines day with your boyfriend and probably you both need to communicate about some of the things you posted here. I will be fine on Valentines. I always am. Besides, we will always have Xanga, right? ha ha
There is a tree in my old neighborhood that still has mine and my first girlfriends name carved in it.
I want a one carat diamond for Valentines Day. This year or next.
@amateurprose - aww how cute!
I hope you had a great Valentine’s day. That is exactly what you deserve, a fantastic boy.
@amateurprose - That’s so sweet
@SheDoesntEat - Thank you. He was so sweet, he brought my daisies and a giant balloon and wore a suit and a big cheesey grin. Then we went on a long walk
@my0615 - I wish you luck
One day I want that too <3