On top of everything else, things with my roommate have boiled over.
I no longer feel comfortable in my own home.
God it’s like being back in Germany.
He goes through severe mood swings – between “loving” me to the point he tries to guilt trip me for not giving him enough attention, ie. I’m studying and he shoves his hands in my face, and telling me he wouldn’t care if I died. It’s unnerving.
However, he usually bounces back quickly.
Not this time.
Because of how stressed I am, I asked him to do one little thing for me – clean the sink and the toilet in the bathroom. It takes all of ten minutes. Throughout the day, while he was playing videogames, or Magic, or sleeping, I innocently reminded him that he promised to do it today. At nine PM, when I was fretting over how to quit dance team, I gave in and cleaned the bathroom just for something to do.
I got home from dance team, my eyes puffy from crying, to have him there, angry.
“You know I would have done it. You don’t trust me”
“I gave you all day to do it, and you didn’t, so I went ahead and did it”
“I would have done it!”
“You say that about a lot of things, yet I still do your dishes and clean up after you. And it’s not fair. You have time to play games and be lazy, I don’t. I’m in the honors program, I’m on dance team. Can’t you help me out a little bit? Don’t you care how stressed out I am?”
“No, I don’t. Other people have fucking stress too, you know”
Door SLAM in my face. I tried talking to him again, begging him to be adult about it. But he was mad. He stormed out.
He didn’t come back.
I texted his mom this morning asking for advice. She said he’s an adult (HA) and she can’t do anything. He found out that I had talked to her, and was livid. He texted me viciously, claiming I was manipulative, that I was an ass, that I was an awful person – that he would never speak to me again. It escalated.
During a class we have together, I went to him, asking if we could talk about this. He said no – how could he speak to me if he was to disgusted too look at me? He added it might be weeks before he would so much as give me the time of day. I went out into the hall, leaned against the wall, and started to cry.
I’m crying because I feel like I’m stuck in an abusive relationship with my roommate.
Because we signed a year lease.
And there’s no way out of it.
And I’m unwelcome in my own home.
All I hear from him are slamming doors.